Yesterday we got the permission slip for DJ to participate in his annual Christmas program.  I am so happy that his school program is doing this.  But I am oh so concerned that I am going to start crying like I did last year.  I have come to accept that my son is deaf and he isnt like most others.  And I no longer cry like I did over that fact.  But when I see children from the ages of 3 - High schoolers putting on a Christams program it just brings to me to tears.  I happy that they are strong and are taking this hurdle with such grace.  But to think of the pain, rejection, and turmoil that they are going through or will have to go through brings me to tears.  Maybe with more years of dealing with this I wont find myself so emotional.  But as of late I sill am.  I guess it dont help if sometimes I am an emotional case to begin with.

I wonder if I can get my crying out before the program and not cry during it this year.  I dont know.